They then started me off with a fluid flush, then anti-nausea meds, then the chemo drugs. I was told to expect to be cold but I never was. They keep dum-dum suckers on hand to help with the bad taste in your mouth but I had some tic-tacs in my purse so I didn't eat any candy (kudos to me). They also have snacks like fruit, crackers and drinks. Bert came with me so she ran out to pick up a healthier lunch since we were running 2 hours behind. I had turkey on 9 grain bread with a little cheese, mustard, lettuce & tomato. I only managed to eat 1/2 of it. I have felt a little queasy off and on tonight so I broke down and took some anti-nausea meds. Unfortunately they can suppress your immune system, make you dizzy and cause headaches. Geez! So much to look forward to!
So chemo wasn't so bad after all. I was surveying everyone about how chemo affected them and everyone was very forthcoming which helped me be more prepared, although I realize we are all different. But I did freak out as one lady came in and sat next to me who looked really, really sick. She has breast cancer, has lost her hair and currently resides in a nursing home. She told me that she has Stage 2 breast cancer (as I do). I can only think that hers has spread to other areas because she seems and looks so ill. She was very nice and I tried to converse with her but weird thoughts kept going through my head. I was thinking "I don't want to look like that" and "Oh my god, my family's going to put me in a nursing home!" I was freaked out enough to start texting people about how freaked out I was because I sure couldn't say it out loud! I was done at about 2:30 pm (started out at 8:45 am). I do have to return to the clinic next week (Mon - Thurs) for shots to keep my white blood cell count up. So much fun to be had!
I do want to say thanks to all the folks out there that checked in with me today either by phone, email or Facebook. I appreciate that I was on your minds and you were sending me positive thoughts and prayers. I know that's what got me through today. Also, I would be remiss if I didn't thank my family and my co-workers who are holding down the fort for me. But, because I felt ok, I did go do a live interview tonight on WCFN, Channel 49 discussing our financial situation. I must have had chemo brain already as I gave the wrong toll-free hotline number - I said 866 instead of 877 but corrected my mistake and their website will show the correct number. Maybe you shouldn't let me out and about?!