Tuesday, January 5, 2010


Since it's the day before chemo, the steroids begin again and my anxiety level starts to ramp up. So I was listening to some music and singing along (at the top of my lungs no less) as it helps keep the anxiety down. You should be aware that my singing voice is so atrocious that I was kicked out of the church choir when I was 11 years old. [I'm sure that experience would require many therapy sessions to resolve]. One of the songs that came on was "Stand" by Rascal Flatts. While I've heard it many times before, today I actually listened to it. Then I played it again so I could sing along! The lyrics are as follows:


You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright


Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

[Repeat Chorus]

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place

[Repeat Chorus]

Maybe the song should say cancer's like a novel, with the end ripped out as I don't know the ending. I am holding on and plan to keep holding on. Maybe I am experiencing some form of denial as I don't allow myself to even consider not surviving this ordeal. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right?

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