I have utilized this phenomenon many times in my life. Like the time in Junior High when Randy Higbie put itching powder down my back. Now itching powder isn't really a powder, but actually looks like hundreds of tiny slivers. It will just keep itching and itching until it can be washed off. Well, that afternoon I decided that I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of scratching, so I willed myself not to scratch. He was actually quite impressed with my ability to withstand the agony. But, when I got home, I made my mom scratch my back for what seemed like hours until the itching subsided. My question is, was it worth it? I sat with that crap down my back for at least 2 hours, refusing to scratch!
So, today I went to the clinic because I felt so god-awful. I think I have only felt this bad once before and that was when I had meningitis (yes, a very scary thought). They say this could very well be the cumulative effect of chemo and to ride it out. Of course the doctor was running behind today so, as I was laying across 3 seats in the waiting room trying not to spew bodily fluids everywhere, I surrendered to the chemo. Yes, chemo wins! I will allow my body to feel the effects and let them dissipate naturally.