Some days I just want to be Tami, Executive Director, Roller Derby Queen and Hannah's Mom, not Tami, breast cancer survivor. It is something I struggle with every day. Living with the paranoid demons in my head that say, "uh oh, your back hurts, must be the cancer" or uh oh, your nose is bleeding, must be the cancer". Sometimes its hard to live day-to-day once you've been diagnosed with a potentially terminal illness. But I'm learning and my priorities are shifting. I have yet to discover where this journey will take me.
Tomorrow is my last chemo! YEAH :-) Maybe once the cancer drugs get out of my system, I'll stop being so damn paranoid. Tonight was Roller Derby practice and Steroid Queen here was tearing it up in my Rocky Horror Picture Show t-shirt! So I'm gearing up for tomorrow and am actually less anxious than usual - probably because it is the last round of chemo and because of derby practice, which makes me feel "alive". Besides I am kickin' cancer's ass!