Monday, November 8, 2010

Why does God hate me so much?

It has been one emotional roller coaster of a day. I really would like to know why God hates me so much! I had my annual mammogram today, which should be half-price since I only have one boob, right? (Be warned, radiologists have no sense of humor!) And of course they found some "suspicious" spots in the remaining breast that were not there last year. Then I learned that recurrences in HER2-positive breast cancer tend to happen in the first year or two. Damn, just when I thought treatment was ending. I have a surgical consult on Thursday. I knew they should've taken them both last year! I have been having a recurring nightmare that I was going to have to continue treatment and now it just might be true! My response to this turn of events was to turn the music up loud, sing at the top of my lungs and dance to the Time Warp!!! I didn't give a damn if anyone saw me! It's a great stress reliever.
I was feeling so good about treatment ending and moving forward with my life. I decided that I needed to "inspire" other survivors and was just approved to be an Imerman Mentor Angel. Imerman Angels carefully matches and individually pairs a person touched by cancer (a cancer fighter or survivor) with someone who has fought and survived the same type of cancer (a Mentor Angel). These one-on-one relationships give a cancer fighter or caregiver the chance to ask personal questions and get support from someone who has been there before. Mentor Angels can lend support and empathy and help cancer fighters and caregivers navigate the system, determine their options and create their own support systems. Imerman Angels was created on the belief that no one should have to fight cancer alone and without the necessary support. At 26 years old, Jonny Imerman was diagnosed with testicular cancer and began his fight against the disease. Throughout his experience, Jonny was lucky enough to have loving support from his family and friends but had never met anyone his age who was a cancer survivor. He wanted to talk to someone just like him, someone who truly understood, and was intimately familiar with his experience. In short, he was looking for someone who had already beaten the same type of cancer. This was the beginning of Jonny’s vision and in 2003, it became a reality when he founded Imerman Angels. Jonny was at the YSC breast cancer symposium on Saturday at Parkland, so I had a chance to meet him.
Then I learned this afternoon that the Florida Coalition Against Domestic Violence wants to do a phone interview with me tomorrow regarding their Domestic Violence & Brain Injury Project Coordinator position! YEAH! They are looking for someone with knowledge, skills and at least three years experience working with survivors of DV. Candidates also need knowledge of traumatic brain injury and experience working with individuals living with a brain injury. Also knowledge of root causes of violence against women and oppressed groups; experience coordinating partners for statewide committees; experience managing grants including report writing and successfully meeting required outcomes; experience with a coordinated community response to domestic violence; experience conducting a statewide needs assessment; and, a consistent employment history. The job is based in Tallahassee, Florida and requires extensive in-state and some national travel. Now doesn't that sound perfect for me?! So, first bad news, then good news and now hope for a somewhat "normal" life. So I need your positive thoughts, prayers and best wishes as well as an answer to my question!

1 comment:

  1. I'm pulling for you Tamale and sending LOTS AND LOTS of positive support for both your consult on Thurs and your interview on Fri. It certainly sounds like a great fit for you.